Wednesday, March 31, 2010

Freedom

Today I was in divorce court. And just as it began we were there in matching outfits.

Could not make eye contact as we stood giving sworn statements before the judge. In 5 short minutes our marriage was legally ended. What a relief to have this part be over and to feel the freedom infuse my spirit. My fear was that there would be something unpleasant. But nothing was just as it began with pleasantness.

 

As I sat here a few moments ago celebrating my freedom with a melody of praise music, the Spirit spoke in my heart “now you need a spiritual divorce” and so I prayed. Father divorce me from him. Let there be no soul ties, cleanse me of all physical bonds and release me from all spiritual ties. Free me from anything that this marriage has left in my life. In Jesus‘ name.

 

May you be free too!

 

QueenPam

6 comments:

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Pam...kinda awkward leaving a comment about glue on your divorce post! LOL

I don't know if on the Helmar link on my blog if they have a store here in Ohio that carries Scrap Dots. I should tell Tracy to set up at Stamp Away!

QueenPam said... Best Blogger Tips[Reply to comment]Best Blogger Templates

Thanks Dawn for responding. If you ever find out please let me know. QP

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Hi Pam,
I follow your blog and others, but rarely post. However, today I wanted to tell you it does get better and it will actually be ok :-) I am also divorced, now 5 years. Although my ex-husband and I were seperated for several years before we actually divorced, I did not feel like I was not "married" until my divorce was final and I received the divorce decree in the mail. Honestly, when the decree arrived in the mail, I had mixed feelings but mostly I felt a sense of relief and like you "freedom". From what I wasn't quite sure, but I felt it :-) Throughout my journey, I went from wondering how I would ever get to a place where I didn't feel like someone's wife and sad about the loss of my marriage...to one of being happy and comfortable with my life. I went back to school, got a masters degree and doctorate degree and reconnected with old friends and crafting that I enjoy. I have been able to create a life for me and my children that I don't think would have been possible in the toxic relationship I had with their dad. I am sure he is much happier too. In fact we are better friends than we ever were in marriage. The key for me was moving on. Letting go of all the hurt, anger, resentment and accepting the "freedom" of being me and doing the things that make me a better mom and better person. So, best wishes to you as you start a new chapter in your book of life.

Brenda said... Best Blogger Tips[Reply to comment]Best Blogger Templates

Pam, I thought I was already following your blog, anyhoo, I just did it again, I wish you peace and happiness and blessings, and joy in your new life.

QueenPam said... Best Blogger Tips[Reply to comment]Best Blogger Templates

I wanted to thank every one for their kind words. Live is too short to stay in a bad place. I'm on to better times! QP

Brenda said... Best Blogger Tips[Reply to comment]Best Blogger Templates

Thanks for your heartfelt comment on my blog. Sandy sent me this handbook a couple of years ago, i could never find one. Now, to do something with those copic markers!!

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